Hi everyone… So, I know I kinda went MIA for a little while.. But I’m back, and trying this again.
I know HCG works. But when I went off the diet for the holidays, it really kicked me to the curb with a complimentary doughnut in hand.
Today’s my first day back on my slightly-modified-HCG plan & I’m hoping to get to goal by my birthday in June. Crossing my fingers. π
Now, since I have so much to lose.. I’m planning on staying on the diet until I reach my goal, but am also making it more manageable by allowing myself things which, while they aren’t on protocol, I can still lose on.. Until they no longer work. Β I’m also allowing myself to take little weekends off in order to keep my sanity for the next 5 1/2 months.. I’m still not sure how often I’m going to allow that. If this takes longer to lose weight this way, then so be it. I need to do what I’ll stick with. And I’ve found that if I feel like I’m depriving myself, I binge… and gain. With the little things I allow myself, it shouldn’t feel like I’m really depriving myself.
So.. The reason I decided to get back to blogging was because.. While I was looking at other blogs to keep myself encouraged, I ran across one blog that really made me want to succeed. Β With that said, this particular blog was so incredibly negative… So incredibly harsh and crude (Tho the writer herself was an overweight HCG-dieter, herself) That I decided I wasn’t going to be a bitter-dieter. That’s all there is to it. π
Dieting sucks. Really, it does. But… being overweight sucks too. It seems to me that if you’re determined to be unhappy & bitter, that you’d probably have a difficult time succeeding to your goal weight.
Either way, that blog encouraged me in basically being the opposite. I WILL lose the weight and get to goal .. and do it all without being hateful & discouraging to other people.
Okay, so! On to dieting… π
I started the diet out today with my modified plan & will see how it treats me tomorrow. Over the holiday season I gained back 17 of the 30 I lost. Not so great. But I kinda went on anΒ uninhibitedΒ longterm binge. My husband was out of town & with me being here by myself and the two kids, I ate to compensate for my bummed-out-ness.
So.. in reading this blog, please remember that this is COMPLETELY OFF PROTOCOL. But, I’m doing what works best for me, right now. When I have only 20lbs to lose, I’ll do a strict round in order to reset my metabolism & set me up for long term life-style. So… to emphasize.. Read with care!! Mileage may vary.
I started out the day with:
6am- woke up with Hubby & helped get him out the door for work. Weighed in & started drinking my water as I got my daughter around for school.
12:30pm- Finished up my first bottle of water & rolled some deli-ham (I haven’t had any problems eating deli-ham on the diet.. as long as it’s thinly sliced lunch meat), salad & a sprinkle of mozarella cheese (in place of my milk) in a tortilla shell. (I’ve found I can have Taco-Bell tacos on the diet and still lose.) We’ll see if store-bought tortilla shells work as well as taco-bell’s. If it doesn’t, I’ll just go back to not having them and treating myself to taco-bell every so often. I’d just really like to be able to fix tacos for my family at night time and actually eat them WITH them. π
3:30pm- Picked up my daughter from the busstop and went on a quick little walk with the kids & our border-aussie in the snow. π
4pm- Made the kids hot-chocolate & started steeping some green tea for me.
6:30pm- Made Potatoe & Ham soup for hubby & the kids & decided to skip dinner after taste-testing the soup a few times. (I also ate some of the ham I put in the soup… Fatty-ham… Not so great for my weight loss.)
I ended up having some mandarin-oranges in place of dinner. I’m not sure how that measures up to regular oranges but we’ll see tomorrow. π
The plan for the rest of the night… Share some light popcorn with the hubby & a diet coke as we watch Desperate Housewives.
I know my menu seems pretty laid back & relaxed… And totally off protocol, which it is, but I’m trying something new in the hopes of sticking with it long term for the weight loss I so desperately need.
I know alot of hardcore dieters will say ‘you can do it, if you try hard enough’ concerning completely on-protocol. And this is probably very true. But… I also think you know yourself better then anyone else does.. And you need to do what YOU think will be best for you. π
It’s kinda exciting… My mother in law and I spoke about Christmas this year & she’s wanting us to go to Wyoming to see them for it. Normally, I’d probably be feeling a little tense & dreading it due to my lack of self-confidence & self-image. I really don’t like being around people.. Not since I’ve gained all this weight & it’s really hindered our social life. This year, however, I’m excited.
Hopefully, by Christmas, I’ll be at my ultimate goal weight… (I should be my ultimate goal weight in June, but I’m giving myself someΒ leniency due to the laid-back nature of my protocol.) So I’m very excited to enjoy this winter. The first time I’ll be at a healthy weight since giving birth to my first kid.. And the first time my husband’s family will of seen me skinny since before I married him. π Hoping to try snowboarding again.. And this time hopefully can get up on my own after falling in the snow!
Wellp.. On to enjoy the rest of the evening.
Happy Losing!!
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